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Friday 23 May 2008

sumo!

so i went to watch sumo today.. super enjoyed it! i mean.. its a rare chance and the may grand sumo tournament was right here in tokyo.. how could i not watch?!?

woke up early in the morning, to head to the venue to purchase one of the 350 tickets that would be released only from 8am on the actual day.. cheapest, and of course, worst seats.. but found out later they were good enough!! :p

so after class, it was back to the ryogoku kokugikan for the matches.. good thing too coz from 10am to 2pm, it was the junior wrestlers in the lime light, and while they may be good chances to spot future talents, not knowing much about sumo made it impossible to fully enjoy them.. so it was the afternoon matches with the higher ranking sumos that were of more interests.. particularly this guy called kotooshu who is like the first european born sumo ever to reach the rank of ozeki.. thats like only one rank below yokozuna? and hes only 25! impressive eh? LOL..

but alas.. it was a day of upsets.. kotooshu entered the day at the top of the table, being the only sumo to win all 12 previous matches.. even the 2 yokozunas in the tournament didnt have that kind of results :p well.. today was the day.. hoping he would finish undefeated was thrown out the window.. even with everyone rooting for him and cheering him on, he fell to his opponent, pretty quickly i might add. hahahaha!!

the final two matches for the day were of coz the yokozunas, no, not against each other (that was to be on the final day!). they too were defeated by their opponents! it was like watching man utd, arsenal and chelsea all lose in the same weekend.. to division one opponents. HAHAHAHA..

oh well.. pictures to follow.. it was truly an experience.. sumo is not just about the fighting.. coz that last barely a minute mostly.. actually, its more about the rituals, and the actions..

an.interesting.experience

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Tuesday 13 May 2008

almost a week

hey ya all. its now almost a week ive spent in tokyo japan! im definitely still loving it! :p

today i had my second japanese language class. no wonder my cousin told me japanese is one of the hardest languages to learn lah!!! but its still fun. lots of practice i need in writing those hiragana characters man. I find the remembering which sound is which character the hardest!

the past few days saw me experience my first rain in tokyo. the rain here is light and with small droplets. makes you doubt for a moment if its really raining. lolx. but when you feel the coldest envelop you, your doubts are definitely washed away. the first day was a bone crunching TEN degrees celsius!! I tell you, i am so not prepared for this kind of temperatures! shiok, yes lah. but its not fun shivering the moment I step out of the warm comforts of my home! LOL. after that its been better. still cold but my clothes are still sufficient. makes me wonder what winter is like then. haha. still, no complains though. still love the weather. wonderful to wear all my nice clothes and walk around town. no worries about dirtying them clothes with sweat and all. haha.

having.the.time.of.his.life

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Thursday 8 May 2008

land of the rising sunnnnn

kom ban wa!!!!

and like that, its the second day of my stay in japan.. :p

if youve heard about the 6.8 magnitude earthquake that hit 100 miles off tokyo last night, dont worry. im fine. didnt feel a thing. slept through it.. what to do. so tired after yesterday. first the plane got delayed.. only took off at 0030, almost an hour later..

on reaching, took a shuttle bus to shinjuku station for ¥3000. and from then on, it was all walking sia.. tried to find the hostel office using only an address and a map. walked round and round (until i got dizzy) and up and down (until i couldnt differentiate up from down), finally managing to find it.

then it was walking again, at first wanted to walk to the hostel, but realised it was crazily far. changed plans and took a number of trains (what to do.. got so many different operators that dont work together like SMRT and SBS) to the nearest station. then walk again to find the house. and all that walking while dragging a suitcase whose pulling handle decided to break off lah! FREE STUFF IS THIS QUALITY WAN! remember that everyone. that said, the rail and metro here? way waay waaaaaaaayyy better than those in singapore lah. (ok. thats an exaggeration) i must say although they are not as new, it is still clean, nice smelling (even though smoking is allowed in the stations)

then i slept early, at about 9pm.. which is 8pm sg time. for the first time in like 124346678578567453453 years! and this morning, woke up bright and early at 7.30am, 6.30am sg time, again like never before in 214235547568697569098978567 years lah!

tried to walk the route from my new home here to school. realised it takes almost 1 hour 15 mins.. guess will have to include bus and trains in the travelling when classes start..

weather here has been great. wonderful in fact. no wonder everyone here is in suits! the guys at least.. that morning walk if done back home would have left me wet in sweat like i jumped into a swimming pool! but i didnt even break out in any perspiration. shioks! can take out all the nice clothes to wear and dont have to worry about spoiling it or dirtying it. hahaha..

and no wonder everyone here so slim and fit! they walk EVERYWHERE! otherwise they cycle around man.. the number of cars are not small, compared to back home, but if go by the ratio of cars to people, its definitely very small.. more thoughts on cars here later..

ok. having fun here, still its only two days.. will see if in 60 days, im still having fun. i'll bet i will. :p

oh ya.. pictures will follow soon. i promise!!

becoming.japanese

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Tuesday 6 May 2008

wheeeeee...

time check: 10.41am..

in slighly more than 12 hours time, my arse will be on a flight leaving for tokyo! for two months!! i can hardly believe it.. the day i have been looking forward too.. (altogether now: wheeeeee!!!!) :p

just last week i was struggling with my exams. all 3 of them. the last of the last.. cant believe how 4 years have flown by just like that. i mean.. thats so damn freaking fast!! all the friends ive made. the bonds ive formed.. the getting used to university life and all.. now its time to uproot myself again and start a new chapter.. (though its a new chapter im already used to.. sigh.)

its hard imagining life after nus. not waking up and walking past the rooms of friends and neighbours. sharing the communal bathroom as we brush our teeth, wash our face and shower (and of coz not forgetting the piss and shit. lolx.) the jio-ing of each other for dinner and supper. the soccer nights in the mpsh. oh man oh man oh man.. so sads!! dont worry guys. i promise to visit!!!

ah well.. intermission time. in between 2 halves in a musical got the intermission break. in between drama serial episodes got commercial break. so in between 2 chapters of my life must also have break. holiday break!! :p hahaa. lame yes i know.. but isnt that so so me? :p

so tokyo here i come! next post will be made when ive set foot on japanese soil!! :p

wheee.

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Friday 25 April 2008

whos to blame?

so who can I blame? do I push it to someone else? exonerating myself of responsibility? or do I take it like the man I am.. or at least supposed to be.. so what now? its obviously my doings, I've got to face the truth. like it or bot, sometimes the truth hurts.. and like a bitch too.

I wish for all in the works
never to have to have to see
meant to be is meant to be
to the future it holds
let the sun rise from the west
you see how the moon us square
down the well I sit

would you rather peel off that plaster slowly and experience prolonged pain, or rip it off in a flash and bare the spilt second agony?

a.continuation.of the first

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Wednesday 23 April 2008

control

ive come to realise that i cant have everything under my control. theres just some things i have to let go, accept that i have no say. but im sure its apparent. the feeling sucks. the feeling of helplessness, of not knowing what will happen next, coz out of the million and one possible occurances, just about any one could be next.

now everyones so busy
why is it a must to go through this
did you know its not necessary
you sure you prefer it
take one step back and observe
that everyone have different abilities
one may be good at memorising
extra time spent not needed
step back into yourself
away to where your dreams lie

i too have realised, that what i want, im clearer now.

its like studying now for exams
not like i put a lot of pressure on myself
some of the others sure do
name a few, i better not
or relying on that degree cert
title is all it is
but think its their great passport
some people do just that
acknowledgment is from your future boss
that what impression
you leave is more crucial
feel like a job was meant to be yours
that is how passion is born
way to go little one
too bad time waits for noone
be there always
it will make you cherish all
physical hurdles i will conquer
emotional ones hard to say
or how will things turn out
even i cannot decide
mental strength is most important

but yet its hard to convince others to see my point of view

not forgetting all my friends
some day we will definitely meet again
moments like now, i feel nostalgic
hot drinks taste best when its cold
and i wish i didnt have to move on
another day here is what i want
cold and lonely, it rarely is
leaving this phase
me thinks the chapter is about done
confused and uncertain
to venture out and explore
what is next, only God knows
you see, i dont have to be afraid
feel the strength flow in me

cryptic.and.loving.it

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Saturday 5 April 2008

cuckoo clock.

no i dont mean the clock with the bird popping out to announcing the hours and the halves in between..

im referring to my body clock, which regulates when i sleep, how long i sleep and when i feel like sleeping..

after the trials and tribulations of the week that just passed, im now feeling sleepy at the weirdest of times. im too used to turning in at 8am and waking no later than 12noon.. feeling sleepy at 1am and waking 2 hours later. and then lasting all the way to the morning.. but yet, it doesnt happen the same sequence in a pattern..

take today. i fell asleep at about 2.. woke up at 4.. now its almost 2pm and im stil super duper awake and alert.. it doesnt feel as though im surviving on minimal sleep.. weird!!

on that note.. sitting here in the hall library.. im surrounded by the nerdy looking ones (no offense yall) and most if not all are foreigners (again.. no hard feelings right?)..

nothign wrong with that.. its me! what the heck am i doing in hall on a saturday afternoon? never before have i been in this situation. one friday night burnt.. now it looks like another saturday night, on top of the saturday that is already half passed..

somebody.save.me

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the week of the living dead.

well well well.. hearty congrats to myself. this week is officially the most studious week of my entire nus phase!

in short. design 2 project individual unit report was due last thur. after working on it as per normal, the time had come to stepped up the gears and work harder, faster, etc..

waking up at 12 noon on wed, i went to the "chem engin haven" and plunked myself down in front of one of them nondescript terminals and started work. surfacing for air time and again, time flew by. soon, it was night time.. then midnight.. then the wee hours of the morning.. and in a let-there-be-light moment, light poured in through the blinds, blending with the artificial light sources in the room (read: fluorescent lights)

after breakfast, it was back to the books computer, which was bent on getting me all crossed eye and whoozy..
inside that confined space. without noticing, time flew by again.. by that (read: thursday, for those who cannot count the hours, minutes and seconds.) evening, i was already sure i couldnt submit on time. after all, the deadline had already passed..

packing up, i went back.. crashed at 9pm, practically didnt move the whole time i was asleep, woke up at 5am suddenly! (all my troubles seemed so far away..) and though i was quite awake and contemplated continuing, the moment my head hit the pillow, i knocked out again until 12noon..

of coz. other than this episode which i particularly remember in detail, and am quite proud of telling, the other days of the week were not much better.. working well into the night. sleeping napping only when the sun is high up in the sky and waking up nary a few hours later.. its a wonder one week on and im still alive.. and still coherent..

vampyre.living.dead.

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Saturday 1 March 2008

follow your heart!

found this article somewhere awhile back..

follow your heart by maya calica

many years ago, while pondering the "rightness" of my own relationship, i asked my mum:
"how did you know that dad was the right one for you?"
she replied: "i just did."
"well how will i know if this boy is right for me?" i asked.
"you just will," was her reply.

mum was right. our feelings have a way of navigating us towards the right choices, no matter how illogical they may seem to other people. splitting from my then-boyfriend - a good-looking man with a great advertising career - seemed silly to my girlfriends. but it was a thoroughly-wise choice that has made me the person i am today. i have since learnt to heed my heart's inner compass to guide me towards decisions in love, career and life, that resonate with what is right for me.

if you're feeling out of sorts or bored with your life, tune in to what your heart is telling you, with helpful tips from ontario-based life coach, michele caron (www.mylifecoach.com).

consider more than the facts
trusting your heart requires you to become more introspective. so shut out the noise - whether it's the opinions of well-meaning folk or popular wisdom - then tune in to your deepest feelings.
"i asked everyone for their opinion on whether i should quit my job," recalls carolyn, an art director. "i was burnt out, but everyone told me to be practical. for one, i needed the money. second, it was a prestigious international ad agency, and third of all, they had just given me a promotion and a raise."
but an unsupportive boss and long working hours made carolyn sick. one day, she felt she'd had enough and tendered her resignation. for two months, she did yoga and worked on her art. when she was ready to go back to work, she was hired by and even more prestigious agency, and now works with a boss she has great respect for.
"following your heart means you have to consider more than just the facts and listen to your inner self," says michele.

start with small things
as in all things, start heeding your heart smarts with the little things.
"for example, when choosing what to eat for lunch, stop and ask yourself: what are my insides telling me?" says michele. "then affirm that you value this inside voice be following what it says."
try this bit of advice, even if it sounds silly.
"if you practise doing that with small things, you will get much better at following what your heart is telling you when it comes to the big decisions.

it's more than just an emotional choice
while feelings have a lot to do with following your heart, there is a thin line between being emotional and answering a deeper calling.
"emotions tend to be more transitory," shares michele. "on the other hand, feelings from the heart are wiser and more sustained. it is probably best to try and get in touch with these deeper feelings when making a choice."

the heart gives you peace
"most people feel a sense of happiness when considering the alternative that matches their heart's choice," explains michele.
no matter how crazy your decision appears to be to the outside world, following your heart brings about a sense of peace.
"i am a person with a strong rational intellect, but when it comes down to the crunch, i'll always follow my heart. it sometimes leads to exciting life with ups and downs, but the ups certainly outwrigh the downs," says michele, who knows this all too well. she moved to a different country to be with a man she had only met three times.
"how crazy does that sound?" she laughs. "but something told me he was the right man for me. he is now my husband, and we have a wonderful life together."

most importantly, following your heart aligns you with your core values. looking back, my split from my ex allowed me to discover what i truly wanted out of life, and that we were not a match after all. it also helped me to realise the kind of guy i do want to spend the rest of my life with - a soulful man who shares my love for nature. had i ignored my heart, i would not have learnt these truths.
michele says: "when you make a choice from the heart, you can be confident that you did your best to follow what's best for you."


you see. sometimes the mind thinks too much. too much thought is placed in the problem, and what happens? emotions take over. and then? decisions made become irrational, choices made become what would normally be chosen..

follow your heart i say. and let your heart lead you. it where you really should belong.

trust.your.heart

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on the line

ive placed my heart on the line. the balls in your court. what are you gonna do with it?

ever felt like everythings out of your control, and nothing you do will change things? so how? what do you do?

you gotta have faith. trust that everything will be alright. believe that things are always for the better.. or is it? accept that whatever happens, youre prepared.

that said...

easier.said.than.done

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Friday 29 February 2008

right here. right now.

you look peaceful when you sleep..

what is it that im doing right now??

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shite.

damn! i cant believe we totally missed the show. paid 120 for them tickets and we totally forgot the show was today at 8pm.. i say today coz even though already pass midnight, i havent sleep. so still the same day lah. lolx.

yes. back to the stupid mistake. what were we doing at the time the show was playing? sleeping. can you fucking believe it? how cock can i get sia. i blame myself for it i guess. knowing we wanted to watch, i didnt make that extra effort to remember.. reason? my usual forgetful-ness totally forgot the date it was today. yeah, i got reminded a few times here and there. but i wasnt thinking about the show then! and when i think of the show, and remember its on one of the last days of feb, it was already too late.

argh.

please.just.kill.me

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Saturday 23 February 2008

retirement

and then its over. 4 years in university, 3 years in hall. 3 inter hall games have i partaken in. and that was the last for my "career". as a touch rugby player for hall, as a track runner.

having won touch last year, i took up the responsibility of captain, with a mission to fulfill.. that a champion is not truly a champion by winning, but by winning it again and holding on to it. alas. it was not to be. after all those sweat, blood and tears spilled, all those hours put into training and going through all those moves, perfecting them and making them work in a game, we were unable to make our efforts count.

truth be told, i lost sight of something important in the aftermath of that day. i forgot that even the best teams do not always win, all the time. even champions have their off days. but they bounce back, and work harder, and achieve greater things. i do hope the future teams hold more, now that the solid foundation has been set.

after all. i read this somewhere.. champions do not become champions when they win the event, but in the hours, weeks, months and years they spend preparing for it. true aint it?

that said, the nostalgia and the reluctance to let go is evident. part of me just dont want to leave my comfort zone, to grow up. i can hardly believe its been 4 years already. while i never was one to be "hall-is-my-everything" kind of person, there is pride and the desire to perform, whenever i don the colours. and not being able to achieve what we set out to. it just crushes you.

minister.of.speed
the title "conferred" to me just last year. what? its been that long already? guess it has stuck. as it is evident..

looking back down the curve. seeing my teammate hurtle towards me. the moment he crosses the line, i set off. bursting down the last of the curve into the straight. "up" he calls and i thrust out my arm. feeling the cool metal smack into my palm. closing my fingers and yanking it away as i sprint down the line. those in front serve as bait. targets for me to lock on and chase. as the gap closes and they are within arms length. alas. the finish line has been reached. no more.

picking up the ball and passing it to a team mate. the spinning ball comes at me like a bullet. plucking it out of the air i take off. bursting down the side as the round the line and go down to score. sure. those will happen again. just not with the same people. not with the same team.

as with all, we have our differences. our shortcomings. but to put everything aside. and play for each other. ones strength covering anothers weakness. thats the stuff champions are made of.

my.ihg.career.is.over

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